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Selfmaiden
I am an artist, animal keeper, and biologist from Germany.
Lately, my focus has been on programming my own LGBTQ-video-games.
You can find them here:
https://selfmaiden.itch.io/

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Posted by Selfmaiden - 5 days ago


I just thought it might be a fine idea to give you a little insight into my script for the upcoming second chapter of my visual novel Teleny. Here it is:


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Camille: As I was absorbed in my work, halfway through the papers that had been spread out before me, an unexpected presence interrupted the quiet. I was so deeply entrenched in my thoughts that I barely noticed the footsteps approaching while almost mechanically and while still focused on my task I muttered:

Camille: “Sir Larsson, don’t mind me. I’ll be finished with this issue shortly.”

Camille: But then, a faint chuckle broke through the haze of my concentration, a laugh I immediately recognized. It was Briancourt. My gaze snapped up, startled, and for a moment, I almost forgot where I was.

Briancourt: „So, you are free after this?“

Camille: His words, though framed as a question, carried the weight of a declaration. He leaned languidly against a cupboard near the entrance, his eyes fixed upon me with a kind of intensity that made me feel both scrutinized and admired. I met his gaze for a moment, unable to stifle the faintest of smiles that tugged at the corner of my lips.

Camille: “My mother sent you, did she?”

Camille: Briancourt gave a dramatic shrug, the air of theatrical resignation in his manner almost comical.

Briancourt: „Not precisely. I had intended to call upon you, but your mother informed me of your condition. “Ill and still working,” she said. Naturally, I thought it best to come and see for myself if you had maybe collapsed in the middle of your papers.”

Camille: He spoke in jest, as was his habit, but the glint of worry in his eyes told a different story. He had witnessed me at my lowest ebb and was well acquainted with the number of days that had passed since my ailment began to plague me. With a heavy sigh, I could do little but yield to the weight of his gaze.

Camille: „It’s not that bad really. Just a slight fever.“

Briancourt: “Your mother will never let you live this down once you return, you know that?”

Camille: “I am well aware.”

Briancourt: “Ah, yes, you do know her well. When I talked to her, he seemed composed on the surface, but we both know, the tempest within is all too evident, if one knows how to look.”

Camille: “I know exactly what you mean.”

Briancourt: “There is, of course, only one way to resolve this dilemma.”

Camille: I frowned, bracing myself for the inevitable: Yet another of his grating theories on the “finer points” of dealing with women, none of which ever seemed to be grounded in any real understanding of the complexities of human nature.

Briancourt: “After you’ve finished here, come with me and we’ll have dinner. My father is away with his associates, so the mansion is ours, - just the two of us.”

Camille: “ I don’t know…“

Briancourt: “It’s either my mansion or your bed, you see. I promised your mother I’d bring you home, but I never promised I’d do it immediately upon your finishing that tedious work of yours.”

Camille: „You know, I…“

Briancourt: “Come now. She’ll scold you regardless, so you might as well give her a moment to calm herself. Do you remember? When we were boys, you would always retreat to my mansion, seeking refuge from her wrath.”

Camille: A sigh escaped me, laden with an unspoken resignation.

Briancourt: „I swear, I shall allow you the luxury of resting upon my bed for a while.”

Camille: „Well… I am coming with you“

Camille: It was no use resisting, and truth be told, I had little desire to do so. For as long as I could remember, I had followed him in his reckless pursuits, - his foolishness never once leading me astray. He had never failed me, and I was certain he would never allow harm to come my way. With him, I was safe, as though the world’s dangers could never touch me. His words rang true. The thought of evading my mother for a while longer was an enticing prospect.


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Liked it? The whole story is right here:

Teleny (Romance Simulator) by Selfmaiden - Jule he/him


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Posted by Selfmaiden - November 23rd, 2024


Lately, I’ve been super busy participating in the NaNoWriMo Challenge, and I’m thrilled to say that I finished it with a total of 57,000 words! 


What did I write, you ask? Well, I tackled the second chapter of my visual novel game Teleny.


Considering the first chapter already clocked in at around 50,000 words, I did some quick (and slightly intimidating) math and realized… wow. The entire game might end up being around 400,000 words by the time it’s done. That’s a lot. I mean, I probably should’ve seen that coming. After all, a storytelling game with multiple choices was bound to be more word-heavy than a regular book, but still, seeing those numbers hit me like: “Oh, okay, that’s happening!”


On the bright side, taking on the NaNoWriMo Challenge has really proved to me that I can deliver that many words at a fast enough pace to keep moving forward. And honestly? That’s got me feeling pretty hopeful that I’ll actually finish this game someday. (Yes, I’m manifesting it!)


It’s been such a ride so far, and I can’t wait to share more updates with you soon. Stay tuned, and thanks for coming along on this journey with me! 😊


Thanks for sticking with me, and I hope you’ll enjoy what’s coming next in the journey of Teleny.


https://selfmaiden.itch.io/teleny


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Posted by Selfmaiden - November 11th, 2024


Hey everyone! 🌟 I’m diving into the second chapter of Teleny right now, using the momentum from NaNoWriMo (the annual challenge to write 50,000 words in a month!) to push myself forward. Honestly, I’m not sure if I’ll hit the full word count—it’s a little tricky since I tend to delete and rework scenes a lot at this stage, so I’m probably writing way more than what actually makes it into the final script.

I thought it might be a great idea to share a little sneak peek on my first scene and here it is:


Teleny, romance simulator

– Chapter 2

The sphericity of secrets

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Talk to the priest

Camille: And so, a life-altering evening drew to a close. To most, it would have seemed an ordinary night, and even I only dimly sensed its significance then, unaware of the subtle yet lasting impact it would have on my life.


Variable “VisionMatra=True”

Camille: His music still echoed within me, as though my heart were a vast, empty cavern, reverberating these sounds infinetly —an unending refrain of my own solitude and his.


Variable “VisionEgypt=True”

Camille: The echoes of his music stirred within me, a melody of love and despair. One moment, I imagined endless days in his presence, awash in bliss; the next, I felt he was already lost to me and I felt punished for the mere indulgence of such brazen hopes.


Variable “VisionSodom=True”

Camille: His music lingered within me still, like the shadowed sighs of a lover, murmuring sweet secrets in my ear, tempting me with promises of bliss and joy, much like the serpents whisper dared Eve to taste the forbidden fruit.


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Posted by Selfmaiden - October 28th, 2024


Well, it’s about time for a new blog entry!


I’ve been quiet here for a month since I wasn’t able to work on my game project, Teleny, thanks to yet another bout of lung trouble. Unfortunately, this seems to have become a recurring issue, and I'm now seeing doctors in the hope of eventually breathing more freely. But the good news is that I’m feeling okay again, which means I’ve finally been able to get back to writing Chapter 2 of Teleny.


Of course, the moment I start writing again, that familiar wall of writer’s block makes itself known. In Chapter 1, I introduced a whole cast of characters, and now I want to do each of them justice—giving them some kind of arc, even if it’s just a small one for some. It’s a bit overwhelming, but I’m determined to bring these characters to life in a way that feels true to their stories.


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While I was out of order, I did manage to work on a few fanart pieces for followers and took on some commissions whenever I felt up to it (often while propped up in bed!). These are scheduled to post every Monday until September. I know there are so many wonderful people here who deserve a drawing, and I’m genuinely sorry I couldn’t create something for everyone. Please don’t feel sad if I haven’t had the chance to include you just yet! This probably won’t be my last creative burst to take a break from Victorian England and the color palette I’ve set for Teleny.


Thanks for sticking with me, and I hope you’ll enjoy what’s coming next in the journey of Teleny.


Teleny (Romance Simulator) by Selfmaiden - Jule he/him


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Posted by Selfmaiden - September 2nd, 2024


Hello, Newgrounds community!

I think it's about time I introduced you to the main characters from my self-programmed romance simulator: Camille des Grieux and Rene Teleny. Over the course of this year, these two have become very dear to me, and I’m excited to finally share them with all of you.


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Camille des Grieux

Birthday: February 26

Height: 179 cm


Camille des Grieux is a 19-year-old nobleman who comes across as shy, intelligent, and introverted. He often loses himself in deep thoughts, especially when listening to beautiful music. Living with his mother, Camille tries his best to become the man he feels he needs to be after his father left the family to follow his heart.

When Camille meets the pianist Rene Teleny for the first time, he falls in love at first sight. However, he struggles to admit his feelings due to fear of tarnishing his family's reputation and the weight of religious shame.


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Rene Teleny

Birthday: March 5

Height: 165 cm


Rene Teleny is a Hungarian pianist who came to England in search of better opportunities. At the start of the story, he’s 20 years old. Despite coming from a poor family, Rene has managed to gain fame and build a small fortune, though he doesn’t always spend it wisely. Even with his indulgent lifestyle, he still finds ways to send money back to his family from time to time.

Rene is often seen as a free-spirited optimist who seems carefree, but only a few people know him well enough to see beyond this image. Beneath the surface, he struggles with depression and the pain of being separated from his roots.


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Both Camille and Rene have their own complex struggles, but together, their story unfolds into something truly unique. I’m really excited to share more about them and the journey they’ll take in Teleny.

If you're intrigued by their story, keep an eye out for future updates and feel free to share your thoughts! Your input means a lot to me, and I’d love to hear what you think as I continue developing this project.


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Posted by Selfmaiden - August 28th, 2024


Hey, Newgrounds community!


I’m thrilled to share that I’ve just uploaded the first chapter of my visual novel, Teleny and this is my very first blog entry here! 🎉


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After drawing, making music and programming so much, I took a little "open-end-hiatus" last to explore different art styles and ideas. Well, that break turned out to be a bit more extended than planned. 😅


Despite the detour, I couldn’t resist jumping back into “Teleny” and diving into Chapter 2 while still polishing Chapter 1. The encouragement and support so far has been absolutely amazing, but since I am new here: What about telling you what I am doing?


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“Teleny” is a victorian romance inspired by a source material that’s often attributed to Oscar Wilde. The original work, “The Reverse of the Medal” was written around the late 19th century, and it captures the poignant love story between the pianist Rene Teleny and the shy nobleman Camille des Grieux. I’ve reimagined it as an interactive romance simulator, hoping to bring this beautiful tale to life in a new way.


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I’ve been genuinely overwhelmed by the warmth and positivity of the comments I've received. When I first began this project, I was nervous about creating a gay romance and sharing my work. I didn’t fully realize how much I’d need and appreciate your support until now.


I received a lot of kind words and encouragement and this meant the world to me.

I hope some of you will be joining me on this journey aswell.


And for those who might not have seen it yet, here’s the link to the game on Itch:

Teleny (Romance Simulator) by Selfmaiden - Jule he/him (itch.io)


Check it out, (there is a free demo version) and let me know what you think!

Catch you in the next update!

Warm regards,

Jule;


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